Chain Normal

Feeling awfully lonely these days. There's people around me, but they're not with me. Friends and family are distant. The odd thing is, the sun is shining every single day. I had a bad work week that sadly continues tomorrow. Then I'm off for 3 days and on overnights for 8 straight. Then 6 off, and back to normal. A payday is in that time, so maybe I'll take a little trip. Go visit the friends in Kamloops perhaps. Maybe I'll just tell people I'm going but stay here. Who knows.

My dryer is acting up, which is not a good thing. I won't get anyone in here to fix it, I'll just replace it. The reason is because first off it's butt freakin' ugly, and it's TERRIBLE with power consumption. The next time a power bill comes I want it to be less than $100. In this tiny apartment, that's atrocious. It's a good thing they're only like $300 each. My friend has a special deal she can get me, so I'll definitely be hitting her up for that. The thing is, the places out there are more expensive than they are here. Not sure if it's worth it or not. I'll look into it and see what I can find out.

I tried a Lipton Green Tea yesterday. Actually I tried a raspberry version first, and it wasn't very good. Then I checked out the label on the Green Tea bottle and opened it up. I turned the bottle upside down and dumped the entire thing out. It was a waste of $2, but stores don't like refunding drinks. On the label is said 32grams of sugars. Um, no thanks. The added sodium took the joy out of trying something new for me. I won't do that again.

In other news, the car is working fine.

The cats are extremely healthy right now. Both are at healthy weights, both have healthy mouths, but unfortunately both are eating a lot of wet food, which makes their excrement deposits FOUL. WOW. This apartment of mine has almost NO air circulation, so when I come home from work some days, I want to throw up. Any suggestions anyone? It's seriously horrible. I've always prided myself on whether or not my house smells like cat. I've always been told that it doesn't, but nobody says that anymore...

Luke

, originally uploaded by JenniferLayn.

So, I'm sorry about the use of all these Christmas pictures. Though I'm incredibly inspired when looking at other people's work on Flickr during dead periods at work, by the time I get home I'm emotionally exhausted from dealing with incompetence all day and are no longer inspired...for anything really.

I met the sister for lunch yesterday and I can't believe the mood I was in. Parts of my body have started to shift. The pants I wore yesterday were so loose they were almost ready to fall off my hips. By the way, my hips have bones in them. The only reason I know this is because I can feel them. Not just when I lie flat, either. I CAN FEEL THEM ALL THE TIME. I am so happy with this whole lifestyle change I feel like I'm going 1000 ways at once and my skin is the only thing keeping me together. It's odd though, I have a hard time being that happy at work. There isn't one single happy camper there. It's not good, not at all. I still love my job though, and spending time away from the office keeps me interested an happy. I learn something new every day, and understand the cable plant a bit more at the end of each day.

I am not working on Valentine's Day, so on that day I'll be printing out a resume and cover letter and heading to a job lead I received last week. I haven't been able to do so because I worked 65 hours last week, and the hours that I'm working this week prevent me from ever getting there while there's hope of the supervisor still being there. That's about the only way I want to spend Valentine's Day, because my friends are busy with their significant others, and everyone else is working. So, rather than be depressed and alone, I'll be thinking about a new job, and keeping my mind off of my still very single status. As well, I'll be watching 2 movies I downloaded that have NOTHING to do with romance. Crying, feeling fat and alone on a day when most others are with significant others, giving gifts and cuddling and loving each other, isn't an option anymore. I don't want to feel sorry for myself anymore. I'm done with that.

Who knows, maybe I'll spend the day walking around taking pictures, and the night editing those pictures and having a great time by myself. I still enjoy my own company sometimes! Or maybe my one single female friend won't have made plans with her roommates and daughter and will want to hang out. Either way, alone or not, I REFUSE to be depressed this year.

One final note before I head to bed: my brother starts at my place of work tomorrow. I am EXCITED that he's going to work with me, because I think he will love the company like I do, even if it isn't as MUCH as I do. Simply, I cannot wait. I'm planning the hugest hug ever when I see him.