Luke

, originally uploaded by JenniferLayn.

So, I'm sorry about the use of all these Christmas pictures. Though I'm incredibly inspired when looking at other people's work on Flickr during dead periods at work, by the time I get home I'm emotionally exhausted from dealing with incompetence all day and are no longer inspired...for anything really.

I met the sister for lunch yesterday and I can't believe the mood I was in. Parts of my body have started to shift. The pants I wore yesterday were so loose they were almost ready to fall off my hips. By the way, my hips have bones in them. The only reason I know this is because I can feel them. Not just when I lie flat, either. I CAN FEEL THEM ALL THE TIME. I am so happy with this whole lifestyle change I feel like I'm going 1000 ways at once and my skin is the only thing keeping me together. It's odd though, I have a hard time being that happy at work. There isn't one single happy camper there. It's not good, not at all. I still love my job though, and spending time away from the office keeps me interested an happy. I learn something new every day, and understand the cable plant a bit more at the end of each day.

I am not working on Valentine's Day, so on that day I'll be printing out a resume and cover letter and heading to a job lead I received last week. I haven't been able to do so because I worked 65 hours last week, and the hours that I'm working this week prevent me from ever getting there while there's hope of the supervisor still being there. That's about the only way I want to spend Valentine's Day, because my friends are busy with their significant others, and everyone else is working. So, rather than be depressed and alone, I'll be thinking about a new job, and keeping my mind off of my still very single status. As well, I'll be watching 2 movies I downloaded that have NOTHING to do with romance. Crying, feeling fat and alone on a day when most others are with significant others, giving gifts and cuddling and loving each other, isn't an option anymore. I don't want to feel sorry for myself anymore. I'm done with that.

Who knows, maybe I'll spend the day walking around taking pictures, and the night editing those pictures and having a great time by myself. I still enjoy my own company sometimes! Or maybe my one single female friend won't have made plans with her roommates and daughter and will want to hang out. Either way, alone or not, I REFUSE to be depressed this year.

One final note before I head to bed: my brother starts at my place of work tomorrow. I am EXCITED that he's going to work with me, because I think he will love the company like I do, even if it isn't as MUCH as I do. Simply, I cannot wait. I'm planning the hugest hug ever when I see him.