September is always my change month. Weird things happen to me. I tend to get new jobs, I bought my first ever car, I've moved to new apartments and new provinces and on and on.
This month, I'm starting my course online. Here's hoping that as the leaves fall, my brain gets bigger.
Sunday, September 5, 2010
Thursday, July 1, 2010
The masthead needs to change.
I know, I know. I love the new theme, it's really pretty! But the picture I took when this site was the other colour no longer works. Some time later today, I plan on heading downtown to the park that's a block from my work so I can walk around and take some pics. It is Canada's 143rd birthday after all!
Monday, June 14, 2010
Calgary has schizophrenia.
There is no possible way to dress for the weather here. When the sun comes out, we're all wishing we were wearing bathing suits. When it goes away, we're wishing for sweaters. This happened as early as 2 days ago.
I believe most of the changes come as a result of our unique position amoungst the mountains that surround us. We're also one of the few cities (if there even are any more) who get chinook winds that make it so damn warm and wash all the snow away a few times a month. It's ALMOST nice to live here during that time. Of course, it's not uncommon to see the temperatures go from +10 one day to -25 the next. That can be a bit hard to deal with, but that's okay. It's just too bad that we haven't had a half decent summer in a long while. Last year there was a ton of rain and wind, meaning very little sun and warm days.
Either way, I have decided to stay here. I told my landlord I wanted my own place, and she said there's a few people whose leases are up at the end of August, and she knows that one of the couples is buying a place, so they will definitely be gone. She said worse comes to worse, she can put me in a 2 bedroom for a month and charge me the one bedroom rate while I'm waiting for a 1 bedroom to open up. She's also giving me a FANTASTIC deal on the rent.
The 1 bedrooms in this building are very interesting. They all have 9 foot ceilings, and they're almost 2 bedroom suites due to the loft section in each one. When my landlord lived here, she was in one of those suites, and said that she put her bed up in the loft, and used the actual bedroom for guests and as an office when she didn't have any. It also has a fairly nice view of Calgary, and is quite safe, as the slope of the roof will make it almost impossible to get at the apartments with a ladder. All in all it sounds much better than where I am now. It also helps that since the windows face north and south, it's VERY easy to get a nice breeze. Those places are often the most cool units in the building when it's crazy hot outside. This couldn't possibly get better. I'll make sure to post pics once I have things all moved in andd ready to go.
I can't wait!
I believe most of the changes come as a result of our unique position amoungst the mountains that surround us. We're also one of the few cities (if there even are any more) who get chinook winds that make it so damn warm and wash all the snow away a few times a month. It's ALMOST nice to live here during that time. Of course, it's not uncommon to see the temperatures go from +10 one day to -25 the next. That can be a bit hard to deal with, but that's okay. It's just too bad that we haven't had a half decent summer in a long while. Last year there was a ton of rain and wind, meaning very little sun and warm days.
Either way, I have decided to stay here. I told my landlord I wanted my own place, and she said there's a few people whose leases are up at the end of August, and she knows that one of the couples is buying a place, so they will definitely be gone. She said worse comes to worse, she can put me in a 2 bedroom for a month and charge me the one bedroom rate while I'm waiting for a 1 bedroom to open up. She's also giving me a FANTASTIC deal on the rent.
The 1 bedrooms in this building are very interesting. They all have 9 foot ceilings, and they're almost 2 bedroom suites due to the loft section in each one. When my landlord lived here, she was in one of those suites, and said that she put her bed up in the loft, and used the actual bedroom for guests and as an office when she didn't have any. It also has a fairly nice view of Calgary, and is quite safe, as the slope of the roof will make it almost impossible to get at the apartments with a ladder. All in all it sounds much better than where I am now. It also helps that since the windows face north and south, it's VERY easy to get a nice breeze. Those places are often the most cool units in the building when it's crazy hot outside. This couldn't possibly get better. I'll make sure to post pics once I have things all moved in andd ready to go.
I can't wait!
Sunday, May 16, 2010
The week
I ran home to Kelowna again, this time for my sister's 3oth birthday. I am sitting here on my laptop, praying something terrible happens to my car, and I have to stay a few more days. Except I love my car. So I hope that doesn't happen.
Thursday, April 29, 2010
The book
I can't fathom this - I can't stop thinking about how I should write a book, and that it would be good, and that I'd be good at it. The thing is - what the hell would it be about?
Sunday, April 4, 2010
Musings
The more I think about my initial goal of getting a degree in English/Psych, then law school, the more I think it won't fit into my future plans. As if I didn't know already, Kelowna is the place I will stay for the rest of my life. I keep leaving and coming back, so rather than continue that path, I am going to move back ASAP and get things under control.
Part of that is giving up all the wanting I have for other people's lives. My mom moved to the Okanagan a month ago; my aunt is coming in a few months. This means all my family save for my grandpa will be living there. All my best friends save one live there. My sister and one of my brothers lives there. And each time I move away, I YEARN to come back. I leave whatever town I'm living in too early in my haste to come back to my adopted home. And yet still I keep leaving.
The first time was to pursue my dream of being in tech support. I made lots of friends and had a great time. A year less one day later, Kelowna started on fire and made international news. I moved back on day 3 of the fires.
The next time, I left to further my tech support dream. I became a manager and got some of the best coaching and training experience I will ever receive at a company.
The next time I moved here to Calgary. I moved to further my dream of making a shitload of money, live the life I wanted to live. I was warned by my aunt who has lived here for 18 years that this city wasn't friendly anymore. I believed her but thought if I lived in a nice enough area I'd be okay. I was wrong. A unit in this building was broken into, and there were 18 murders within an 80 block radius of my home, all within the first year. The gang violence slowed down, but there was a murder a few blocks from my house about a month ago.
So what have I been doing? Applying at every job back at my old company in Kelowna, in an attempt to get back as soon as humanly possible. Unfortunately, I have an interview on Friday.
You might think this is a good thing, but I can tell you right now, the last thing I want to do is head back to that place. They have a new supervisor, for which I'd initially had high hopes for. A few weeks ago, I had a 7 hour conversation with a guy I worked with in that office that left a very bad taste in my mouth. However, I intend on using it as a temporary means to an end for now. I'd like to make enough money to pay off my car while I'm taking my legal assistant courses online. After that, I'll be spending my days off during the week looking for a legal assistant job. Monday-Friday 9-5 is a dream I have chased for a very long time now.
Working overnights does not work well with my body. I need an unmoving routine day in and day out, or I will never get healthy. I was hoping my doctor would think that my night shifts were screwing my brain up and causing my depression, so I could get a note stating that I am never to work overnights again. That did not happen however, so I'm entering week 2 of nights.
I have a place to live (3, actually) for when I move back. One of my best friends wants me back living with her again, SO BADLY. She talks about it all the time and I know she's thinking about it even when she's not talking about it. I want to stay there, but the rent is much higher than my other 2 options, I have to deal with a dog that chases my cats incessantly, and both my cats love to destroy furniture, which is something I will have to deal with every single day. Plus, the one LOVES to leave a cat sized blanket of hair behind her everywhere she goes, so there's another issue.
The other place I have to live is on the exact opposite side of the town, and in fact is in another town. However, it's only $200 a month, and they've already got a dog and a cat. The dog doesn't chase the cat very often that I've seen, and their furniture is already destroyed. However, there is a very exact heirarchy in that house, that I will never be able to penetrate. And since I'm one of those people that NEEDS to shower every morning before I do anything, I will end up being late for work, and fights could ensue over it.
The final place is on a property that my friend lives at. She is renting it, but has said that she is more than willing to dump all the furniture that people are storing there in favour of letting me live there. There are lots of great things about this place. It's all one room, and it's not very big, but I could be alone any time I wanted. My alone time has always been a big thing with me. And, should I want to bring a boy home and have my way with him, I could! I'd never have to ask if it was okay, or always go to the boy's house. It has a shower and my own personal sink, oven and fridge. The ONLY downside is, there is no toilet. So I'd always have to walk to the main house to pee or whatnot. I pee a LOT, including in the middle of the night, so that might be an issue. The rent is super cheap however, and is in a really picture-esque area of Kelowna. It's quiet out there. And because it would be my place, and it's far enough from the main house, I can watch TV at any volume any time I like. If I want to play Battlefield, at a ridiculous volume, I can. If I want to listen to music extremely loudly, I can. If I want company, it's a 10 second walk to the house and a fast knock on the door, and I've got someone to talk to. I can have anyone over anytime I want.
I digress. Out of the 3 options, I will most likely take my least favourite, as I know what it's like trying to find a roomate that isn't socially awkward, doing stupid things at stupid times, who doesn't pay their bills, who doesn't know what it means to share housework, make a meal for others when they have been feeding you, and on and on. The money thing really bothers me the most, but if I'm careful, I can work it out. Plus, the other 2 places will be there for a very long time (I hope) so should I ever change my mind, I can leave and go to one of the other places. To be honest, I just want to be back in town. Everything else after that is gravy.
Part of that is giving up all the wanting I have for other people's lives. My mom moved to the Okanagan a month ago; my aunt is coming in a few months. This means all my family save for my grandpa will be living there. All my best friends save one live there. My sister and one of my brothers lives there. And each time I move away, I YEARN to come back. I leave whatever town I'm living in too early in my haste to come back to my adopted home. And yet still I keep leaving.
The first time was to pursue my dream of being in tech support. I made lots of friends and had a great time. A year less one day later, Kelowna started on fire and made international news. I moved back on day 3 of the fires.
The next time, I left to further my tech support dream. I became a manager and got some of the best coaching and training experience I will ever receive at a company.
The next time I moved here to Calgary. I moved to further my dream of making a shitload of money, live the life I wanted to live. I was warned by my aunt who has lived here for 18 years that this city wasn't friendly anymore. I believed her but thought if I lived in a nice enough area I'd be okay. I was wrong. A unit in this building was broken into, and there were 18 murders within an 80 block radius of my home, all within the first year. The gang violence slowed down, but there was a murder a few blocks from my house about a month ago.
So what have I been doing? Applying at every job back at my old company in Kelowna, in an attempt to get back as soon as humanly possible. Unfortunately, I have an interview on Friday.
You might think this is a good thing, but I can tell you right now, the last thing I want to do is head back to that place. They have a new supervisor, for which I'd initially had high hopes for. A few weeks ago, I had a 7 hour conversation with a guy I worked with in that office that left a very bad taste in my mouth. However, I intend on using it as a temporary means to an end for now. I'd like to make enough money to pay off my car while I'm taking my legal assistant courses online. After that, I'll be spending my days off during the week looking for a legal assistant job. Monday-Friday 9-5 is a dream I have chased for a very long time now.
Working overnights does not work well with my body. I need an unmoving routine day in and day out, or I will never get healthy. I was hoping my doctor would think that my night shifts were screwing my brain up and causing my depression, so I could get a note stating that I am never to work overnights again. That did not happen however, so I'm entering week 2 of nights.
I have a place to live (3, actually) for when I move back. One of my best friends wants me back living with her again, SO BADLY. She talks about it all the time and I know she's thinking about it even when she's not talking about it. I want to stay there, but the rent is much higher than my other 2 options, I have to deal with a dog that chases my cats incessantly, and both my cats love to destroy furniture, which is something I will have to deal with every single day. Plus, the one LOVES to leave a cat sized blanket of hair behind her everywhere she goes, so there's another issue.
The other place I have to live is on the exact opposite side of the town, and in fact is in another town. However, it's only $200 a month, and they've already got a dog and a cat. The dog doesn't chase the cat very often that I've seen, and their furniture is already destroyed. However, there is a very exact heirarchy in that house, that I will never be able to penetrate. And since I'm one of those people that NEEDS to shower every morning before I do anything, I will end up being late for work, and fights could ensue over it.
The final place is on a property that my friend lives at. She is renting it, but has said that she is more than willing to dump all the furniture that people are storing there in favour of letting me live there. There are lots of great things about this place. It's all one room, and it's not very big, but I could be alone any time I wanted. My alone time has always been a big thing with me. And, should I want to bring a boy home and have my way with him, I could! I'd never have to ask if it was okay, or always go to the boy's house. It has a shower and my own personal sink, oven and fridge. The ONLY downside is, there is no toilet. So I'd always have to walk to the main house to pee or whatnot. I pee a LOT, including in the middle of the night, so that might be an issue. The rent is super cheap however, and is in a really picture-esque area of Kelowna. It's quiet out there. And because it would be my place, and it's far enough from the main house, I can watch TV at any volume any time I like. If I want to play Battlefield, at a ridiculous volume, I can. If I want to listen to music extremely loudly, I can. If I want company, it's a 10 second walk to the house and a fast knock on the door, and I've got someone to talk to. I can have anyone over anytime I want.
I digress. Out of the 3 options, I will most likely take my least favourite, as I know what it's like trying to find a roomate that isn't socially awkward, doing stupid things at stupid times, who doesn't pay their bills, who doesn't know what it means to share housework, make a meal for others when they have been feeding you, and on and on. The money thing really bothers me the most, but if I'm careful, I can work it out. Plus, the other 2 places will be there for a very long time (I hope) so should I ever change my mind, I can leave and go to one of the other places. To be honest, I just want to be back in town. Everything else after that is gravy.
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Greetings.
I'd like to say something fantastically awesome happened to make me want to post, but nothing did. I resisted the TERRIBLE urge to jump in my car and head to Kelowna, which is a big thing for me. It's tough, I only have 1 close friend here, plus my aunt. I'm used to having around 10 people I can call to hang out, so the boredom is killing me slowly. I went to a tim Horton's today for lunch and saw that they are hiring and appear to need people desperately. It's got a huge free parking lot surrounding it, so I think after I get the last gift on my mom's list for her birthday, I might just print up a customer service resume and head on over there. Experience like that would be fantastic, should my current company not come through when I move back.
In other news, I talked to Nola a few days ago on the phone and mentioned how I probably wanted to just take the legal assistant course to make sure the next 7 years will take me in a direction I want. I'm not so sure I want to do that though. I'd really like to just start school. I think I'd love being able to use my creative side, and take some courses that interest me.
There are 2 things getting in the way of me accepting admission:
1. I don't think I will be approved for funding and might need to wait a year.
2. I am scared to accept, because if I am not approved for funding, I will have to ask for my transcripts again, apply again next year, and wait patiently to see if I'm approved for funding from BC instead of Alberta.
The issue here, is that though I would love to take the legal assistant course, as I think it really would help me decide, I also don't have enough for the full year to take full time courses. No big deal, because I can take them online, and save for each course one by one until I've got my certificate. The thing is, how long will that take? I won't be making what I'm making now, in fact my income will most likely be halved, and yet somehow I need to come up with $2000? I wish this whole thing was over already, and it was September, and I had a clear plan. If I already had the $5000 to begin with, I wouldn't be the least bit worried, as I could either pay for my first year of school and get some awesome tax refunds, or pay for the legal assistant courses, work for a year, make sure it's what I want to do, and have a direct path to the rest of my life.
I am not the only person in the world worrying about this, I know, but still.
Got the fucktard brats a new scratching post today, they are pissed. My roommate put TONS and I mean TOOOOOOOONSSS of catnip on the top part, and they won't go near it. Bitches.
In other news, I talked to Nola a few days ago on the phone and mentioned how I probably wanted to just take the legal assistant course to make sure the next 7 years will take me in a direction I want. I'm not so sure I want to do that though. I'd really like to just start school. I think I'd love being able to use my creative side, and take some courses that interest me.
There are 2 things getting in the way of me accepting admission:
1. I don't think I will be approved for funding and might need to wait a year.
2. I am scared to accept, because if I am not approved for funding, I will have to ask for my transcripts again, apply again next year, and wait patiently to see if I'm approved for funding from BC instead of Alberta.
The issue here, is that though I would love to take the legal assistant course, as I think it really would help me decide, I also don't have enough for the full year to take full time courses. No big deal, because I can take them online, and save for each course one by one until I've got my certificate. The thing is, how long will that take? I won't be making what I'm making now, in fact my income will most likely be halved, and yet somehow I need to come up with $2000? I wish this whole thing was over already, and it was September, and I had a clear plan. If I already had the $5000 to begin with, I wouldn't be the least bit worried, as I could either pay for my first year of school and get some awesome tax refunds, or pay for the legal assistant courses, work for a year, make sure it's what I want to do, and have a direct path to the rest of my life.
I am not the only person in the world worrying about this, I know, but still.
Got the fucktard brats a new scratching post today, they are pissed. My roommate put TONS and I mean TOOOOOOOONSSS of catnip on the top part, and they won't go near it. Bitches.
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